2011 is coming to an end

It's been quite awhile since I've last posted anything on my blog. Didn't expect myself to appear on my own blog again hehe. 2010? Overall it's kinda been a good year for me, doing things what a college student does & chilling out like I always do. Trying not to be a jerk, haha must be kicking myself for some reason. 2011? It started off quite fine actually until I decided to call my otaku life a quits, that is the part where my life starts to get "interesting". Well, in a way. It's still interesting, depends how you put it though. Climax? Suspend? Turn around? U-turn? uhh I will say it's all in one. Experience on trying to be normal while am not? Ya, let me tell you. It sucks trying to be someone who is isn't you. All the time, I ain't the kind of guy who is really into horoscope prediction or any shit like those but I hate to admit it. After reading some of those stuff, it kinda make sense on how a person is though. It may not be 100% accurate but it's like almost a bull's eye if you ask me. There is a line from those article that has been bothering me recently, am a leo just so you know. Geez, it wrote something like erm. I tend to give a lot & gain very little. Looking back on those things I've done yea, seems like it quite true. It might be kinda subjective though but at times some parties tell me that you must do something with your heart, sincerely. Not to expect any return. That might be true but at times, some might tells you to set a target or goal & you must do what it takes to achieve that something. Funny eh? The world is changing & at times, I feel like I can't keep up. Things has been happening for the past few months & I'm like oh damn why me? Man I hate this shit! What the fuck! Ya I know, the F word will surely pops out. Duh typical. Shit happens & I'm still too slow to feel what kind of shit is thrown at my or perhaps I'm still living in my own world? Beats me. For all these year, for what I've been giving. Not to say that I want everybody to notice but then, at times I ask myself the same old question. Does anyone even realize? I guess it's a big no. The world it's too big for people to realize eh? Maybe I'm just a clown or maybe I'm living in the land far far away that I though I'm a hero saving a damsel in distress? Some imagination I have here. There is a chinese saying says that life is like a drama or movie. Perhaps that's true. If a girl gets so emotional on a tiny matter. people usually think "man, she is such a drama queen". Maybe I'm doing the same shit? I guess so, by showing my own frustration on this freaking blog. I'm still struggling whether to really explain my frustration in details or not. If I do, indirectly I'm like saying " guys, I have been deceiving you guys for so long & I have a bloody hell of a confession to make" Makes me sound like I a criminal or something. Maybe for those who read my blog must be thinking " Shit, is this guy trying to beat around the bush or something? Why can't he just fucking go straight to the point?" Yea, at times I wonder why I do shit like this but anyway I wrap up my blog for today.